I think I can help you, but first we need to have an Understanding.
“I just want to come clean,” he said.
But there is no “coming clean.” Opposing forces are held in equilibrium, both in the outside world and the inside world of the psyche. This tension is in the fabric. We are not going to solve it. It is not meant to be solved. You are only consciously aware of the tip of it. The moment after you “come clean” it will start to re-build itself.
Before there was the Christian concept of G-d, where G-d is good and the devil is evil, there was Yahweh who embodied both.
