The soul seeks nothing so much as contact with the beauty of the world, or at a still higher level, with God, but at the same time it flies from it.  When the soul flies from anything it is always trying to get away, either from the horror of ugliness, or contact with what is truly pure.  This is because all mediocrity flies from the light; and in all souls, except those which are near perfection, there is a great part which is mediocre.  This part is seized with panic every time that a little pure beauty or pure goodness appears; it hides behind the flesh, it uses it as a veil.  As a bellicose nation needs to cover its aggression with some pretext or other if it is to succeed in its enterprises, the quality of the pretext being actually quite indifferent, so the mediocre part of the soul needs a slight pretext for flying from the light.  The attraction of pleasure and the fear of pain supply this pretext.  There again it is the absolute that dominates the soul, but as an object of repulsion and no longer as an attraction.  Very often also in the search for carnal pleasure the two movements are combined; the movement of running toward pure beauty and the movement of flying far from it are indistinguishably tangled.

…….. sins in this realm are serious.  They constitute an offense against God from the very fact that the soul is unconsciously engaged in searching for God.  Moreover they all come back to one thing and that is more or less complete determination to dispense with consent.  To be completely determined to dispense with it is perhaps the most frightful of all crimes.  What can be more horrible than not to respect the consent of a being in whom one is seeking, though unconsciously, for an equivalent of God?

Simone Weil, Waiting for God